It has been so rainy and cold. It doesn’t often get to me, I’ve lived in the NW for much of my life. But when it rains for days on end, or just drizzles, I get tired of it. It would be nice to have some warm sunshine. It was good to be with my family back in AR. My grandmother died a few weeks ago. She was in her late 80′s. She had been fortunate to be able to live at home for quite a while, but had moved in with my aunt, and then into a nursing home just the last few months of her life. My grandfather died almost 10 years ago, and I know she missed him. She loved to read, and she walked several miles a day well into her 80′s, so when she lost the ability to do those things, she was pretty unhappy.
I love being with my family. It’s fun to be with people who share a similar outlook on life and humor. There’s something grounding about being with people who have known one all one’s life. Of course it was good to share stories and memories of my grandmother, and to have a few good cries. I had a strange realization that I’m no longer anyone’s grand-daughter. I feel very lucky and blessed in life to have had 4 loving and wonderful grandparents. My grandfathers were fun and funny, my grandmothers were loving and thought I was so special. My parents and family may have been fucked up, but my grandparents were always there for me, and for my family.
How wonderful you had such loving grandparents.
My three granddaughters are missing out on this unique relationship. My daughter their mother has denied her children from knowing me. I feel very sad not just for me, but for my granddaughters who oneday will learn that their grandmother lived only 10 minutes away from them.
All the best
Regards Carol
I’m sorry about your situation. Hopefully some day your granddaughters will be able to be a part of your life and you theirs. Blessings to you and them.